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yo im back, sorry for the harsh post according to shufen. (btw, i burst out laughing when i read your tag, literally) yes anw regarding my emo post, me and Her are cool now cos she wants to serenade me with her guitar playing heeheehee so i think im getting my gf back that shit. :) anw apologising means nthg cos actions speak louder than words, so you must hug me tmrw okay valerie seow wei li! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA I FOOLED YOU. some asses thought it was real but nah, im not so emo and insane lorrrrrrrrrrr. valerie's bringing me to newton circus for lunch this saturday, i don't care. ily ex(?)-gf (hearts)

so today schl was cooling, surprisingly but alot of people cried, okay not alot but 3. thats quite a large amount alr, to me haha it was a pretty emo day. after schl, we had e maths lesson then i went huogang mall with candice chai and rachel lim, had pepper lunch for lunch (yummy) then candice left. me and rachel saw this damn gross couple and we chased after the both of them and i ended up FALLING DOWN AND SLIDING ON THE FLOOR WITH MY LEGS SPREAD OPEN AND MY A MATHS TEXT BOOK WAS SENT FLYING AND THE COVER GOT RIPPED OFF AND RACHEL JUST STOOD THERE LAUGHING WHAT THE HELL i was in convulsions on the floor and everyone in front of me, their jaws literally dropped open HAHAHAHHAHA i laughed like shit. got stuff and popular and we ran arnd in the library haha we were super quiet for once. mummy fetch me and rachel home. :) today was fun except the crying parts. okay things to do ah:

• shufen's timetable (checked)
• bird's pinafore (checked)
• a maths homework
• e maths homework
• chinese presentation tmrw
• go through your lit, act 4 scene 2 onwards
• body sculpturing course tmrw, 8-9pm w shufen
• tests start next week
• casino essay research
• tuitioin w/ roy, ask abt e maths graphs & a maths quadratic equations
• get the cca form shit and join art tmrw
• go for chior tryouts (YES WHAT THE HELL)
• saturday, movie w/ family
• saturday, newton circus w/ valerie
• church on sunday

wah guess what, everyone, and i mean everyone is drooling over the girl in my display picture. oohlala.

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yet again, i've lost another. another break up, in just a span of 5 months when i was just recovering from a previous break up, i'm faced with another. it hurts, so much, so bad that.. i don't know. its hard to cope, the five months were wonderful thank you. and all i could do was watch you walk away today. i should have stopped you, stopped you at the bus stop before you boarded the stupid bus. i want to let you know, you suck so bad. i was wrong, i was wrong to have thought that you were good. but you've found another, and he's an angmoh, i bless you two with cursed babies and dicks hahaha. i hate you, you suck. im not gonna introduce good movies/songs/books to you anymore, im not gonna stay up with you anymore, im not gonna accompany you out anymore, im not gonna sing to you anymore, im not gonna hug you anymore, eat your breakfast anymore, bring you coffee anymore or anything.

it sucked so bad when you didn't want to share your drink with me and you didn't care at all when i asked for a break up. all i asked from you was to go on your knees and share your stupid weirdo drink with me. >:( pfft you suck. im not gonna go back with you even if you played me 100 songs on the guitar and to think we were supposed to celebrate our 5th month this saturday. :'(

im swearing off love from now.

4 stages of grief

1. Shock: Feeling numb. You may wake up wondering, "Is this real?"
2. Denial: Being unable to accept the situation. You may find yourself thinking, "This can't be happening. It's not real."
3. Anger: Wanting to lash out at everyone. You may continually ask, "How can this happen?"
4. Resolution: Feeling like there is a way past the grief, an end to the sadness. You may say to yourself, "I will get through this."

i think im stuck at 1.
@ 7:22 PM